This year sure was a mixed bag. If you had of asked me three months ago, about 2016, I would have said it is a year I would like to file in under the “it was shit” folder. This past year has been truly transforming for me in many ways. We had a health scare earlier in the year. The sudden realisation that so of my extended family now have to deal with a life-altering diagnosis hit me. It walloped me right in the heart. I was lucky, my kids were lucky, my family lucked out. It threw me into an existential crisis.
The birth of our beautiful baby boy was an obvious highlight in February. Meeting him and adding to our family was a definite exception to the rule that “2016 can suck a big one“. Also, the idea and realisation of this blog after years of procrastination has given me a new focus. I just want to say thank-you to everyone for supporting me with this new venture!
This blog gave me an outlet when I felt like I was a hamster on a wheel. My life revolved around trying to get Rocket to school on time, limiting Bergan’s cyclone-like trail of damage and getting T-bot to sleep longer than 20 minutes. It turned into resentment. Matt got to leave the house. Whereas, I got to change the umpteenth nappy and wear Eau de Bebe Puke. Now, I do all those things AND try to blog.
The year turned around in September, or maybe it was October, I got a new job. It was serendipitous timing, as on a whim with my resentment levels at an all-time high, I decided to run away to Ubud with the kids! The job itself is much more emotionally challenging than I initially thought it would be. Some days are really hard. So many people ask for help, and I read heartbreaking stories every day. Unfortunately, I have also seen how dark the internet can be; the green-eyed monster sure can make people cruel.
Luckily, I get the opportunity to help people too. My boss is so giving of herself to others. I do not want to sound like I am blowing smoke up her arse, but in a world with so much negativity, it is refreshing to see she cares and wants to help people. I have gotten pretty good at conflict resolution and sometimes just listening is all that is needed to change someone’s day, or dare I say it, their life.
Through that job, I have met some truly inspiring people. One woman whom I call my mentor. I am not sure if she even knows that, but she is, and now my friend. She is the master of the online social media world, and her ability to multi-task is awe inspiring. I always laugh at Matt having ‘man-crushes’, well I think I have a girl-crush on her! Like, totally! Earlier in the year, I did a business plan with Innovative Business Training as I have been doing my Diploma of Rural Business Managment. I am still working on the budget. That bit is hard! The course has helped me to get focused. I feel like this blog can become more than just an outlet or hobby.
The most important thing I have learned from 2016 is I need to stop putting off life. I cannot finish my Veterinary degree anytime soon. I was finally aware that by putting it on the ‘backburner’ I was putting my life on hold. I will finish, but it is not even on my radar anymore. I realised I need to live in the present. I do not want to be that person who looks back with regret. As contrived as it sounds the fragility of life made me focus on what is important. My life, our family, my husband, my kids and actually …. living!
All I can say to 2017 is: “Are you ready for me? Cause I have colossal plans!“